Some Things Stay, Some Things Go
It's been very long since the last post and it is finally time again to spread the many wonders of what I have went through. Well, not really spread but share what have been going on these past few days. There have been many many positive things, or should I say many of them were quite balanced because there was also quite a number of things which was not so good in itself. Things like this make you ever wonder, does the reality of balance really have to be incurred in everyone's lives to make it fair? Or is it just a justification of how life can be unfair for some people? We may never really know the answer that lives within that, we can only live and feel it for ourselves. Take it like how we want to be free of all the troubles, how we just want to live a life without doing anything difficult and when we are really that free, we just want some things to be done although that means defying what we really want which is freedom from work, stress and many other responsibilities which would make a significant improvement in our lives for our future. Like most posts that I have shared throughout, this will be quite lengthy as there have been many occurrences while I was away from this blog, most of which is contributed heavily by the amount of school work I have. Of course, I also have been hanging out with WY and TK a lot along with my Secondary School friends as well although I might not be able to remember some as there were quite a number which I believe is as good as the other outing with them. I guess all of us needs to relax, nobody can do work 24/7 without sleep, our meals or even just for the mental benefits of resting. I just do not know how some people are able to do that, not sleeping and just continue with work. I will go into that with more details later, work have been having quite a toll on me recently and it isn't just something to take lightly. Apart from just work itself, there have also been another thing which have taken quite a hit on me, it's been bothering me for quite a while already and it has definitely been confronted about before. It also definitely happened on a very wrong timing, adding on to the numerous amounts of tests during that period and also the amount of projects to see on a daily basis. Without further ado, let's begin the journey of happenings yet again!
2) Avengers: Infinity War
"The end is near..."
I would like to start off with a movie outing which I went with both WY and NL. It was a movie which I have been eagerly waiting for ever since the first trailer came out and they just repeatedly show more trailers till they finally showed a trailer of Thanos' debut. I was so excited I think I even see the online trailer about 10 times before the date got nearer that me and WY decided to watch the movie on the day it came out which was Wednesday (25 April 2018). I remember I still had IS classes the day after so it should be the right day we went to watch the movie. ME and WY got the movie tickets about a week before so I kept the tickets and looking at it everyday in excitement, and then about 3 days before, I heard that NL was going to join us so I helped change the seats and helped him get an extra ticket at night at Causeway Point. Yes, that was where we decided to watch the movie, Cathay at Causeway Point at 06:30 pm and the movie is going to last for at least 2 hours.The time has come on the day itself which was 25 April 2018, but I had to go to JC's house with JC, ACB and PM at Clementi to start up on our Business Analytics (B-Aly) project first. Although there wasn't much progress, something was at least done although I could not really remember what it was. It was about 04:30 pm already and I just went off from there. I reached there about 05:00 pm and wait for both WY and NL as they came from Republic Poly (RP) and they took quite awhile to get to Causeway Point. We casually had dinner at the Food Republic there and everyone was visibly tired from schooling. We chatted and promptly made our way up to buy the cinema food before going in, we went in just nice due to the fact that the advertisements take quite bloody long, just enough time for me to pee one last time before the movie started.
The movie have started and the gush of excitement flowing through my veins as the title sequence appeared and the movie started off with where Thor: Ragnarok ended, with Thanos attacking the Asgardian refugee ship. Loki and Heimdall died at the hands of Thanos. There was lots of action throughout the whole movie with Spiderman getting his new suit on, Dr Strange and a few other heroes. All in all, this movie was mostly a Thanos movie as he was the one telling the story in his view, on why eliminating half of the universe was a way that life could be sustained. He managed to collect all of the six infinity stones while sacrificing Gamora for the soul ston. The very surprising thing about the movie was that the Red Skull returned and he's not dead as we thought back in the first Captain America movie. Apparently he's been transported to Vormir to guard the soul stone after the tesseract transported him there. He's gained the ability to levitate and he's much more reserved as he used to. Back to the story, the battles took place from New York to Titan with another battle at Wakanda. That's where Thor reappeared wielding his new battle axe with Groot and Rocket Raccoon. In the last part of the movie, Thanos got the last infinity stone which was the mind stone by killing Vision. As Thor struck him, he finally snapped his fingers with the gaunlet, but it got burnt and Thanos escaped with the heroes having no idea what just happened. It was then suddenly everyone started slowly turning into ashes one by one, with half the Wakandian army turning into dust as well. The heroes on Titan turned into ashes as well leaving only Iron Man and Nebula alive. Spiderman's death was the saddest.
By knowing that Thanos have won and half the universe really got erased along with the death of many heroes, the whole theater became silent as the credits started rolling and everyone was confused. The did not know how to react, and the credits just rolled along with the theme being playing associated with the feelings of people being devastated. It was feeling different from when we came into the theater with excitement and joy. The movie ended with everyone being depressed because of the deaths. The very sad part of the credits happened, the title of the movie fading away into nothingness and we all just left. NL took a cab home as he had his reflection journal to do as I talked with WY all the way to the bus stop where he took 187 home. It was both a really great and depressing experience that day. However, the whole movie was fantastic and it lived up to its hype. They also changed Thanos' motivation very well and it tackled a real life issue of over population where it's one of the top problems in the world currently. I'd give this movie a rating of 9.8/10. The 0.2 is because of how depressed it made everyone after leaving the theater, gosh! I watched the movie for the second time the following week on Monday (30 April 2018). I had the chance of watching it as Tuesday (1 May 2018) was Labor Day. I cried as I saw the death of Spider man as it was very emotional to me. Still, an excellent movie!
2) Dreaded School Life
"I had a very expensive education"
School life have been much more dissatisfying as it already is. There is just too many things to do on a daily basis and slowly, we had more and more tasks till our own free time started to slowly fade away. Much of my time have been spent on staying back to do project work, especially for B-Aly where there is a Skype session every Friday with the lecturer, and it's a 100% remote learning module. That's one of the projects we actually focus on, the rest was just starting discussions on Skype such as Financial Management (FMGT) and Enterprise Creation & Development (ECD). We also did a report for Cost Management Accounting (CMA) as well. I was grouped with different people from the class, which all of them were girls. The only people that I'm same group with throughout are JC and ACB. Time went by fast along this period and it was very hard to cope with how fast the time bring along the lectures and tutorials where it's impossible to capture information sometimes. Frankly, I get sleepy at times and fell asleep on occasions because I could not stand the reality of having to sit there trying to take in information for papers which would probably decide my future outlook on my career path which I frankly must say that I am very uncharted about it at the moment. On the bright side, at least I have a clear goal into marketing as there have been support all around for me to go there as it would allow me to harness the use of my artistic talents to do well in that specialization of my course. It definitely sparked a passion in me for going there so it kind of motivated me to at least try to survive to that point because it would be nice to finally make use of my skills for something relevant to my work, where I can enjoy doing what I love and at the same time, do well and excel in it which would help me find a future.
With that said, time moves on very fast. As we were all busy with all the projects, the Common Test (CT) period have already started to pop by soon enough. We did projects until it was Monday (28 May 2018). where we set them aside to focus on our revision. To be honest, I only really started revising on Wednesday (29 May 2018) as I did not have any feels nor the energy to revise despite the fact that the tests were a few days away. The tests included ECD, B-Aly, FMGT and CMA, two of the latter which I am not knowledgeable at the very least. Other than that, I have no clue whatsoever I'm doing, even the tutorials were bloody difficult to me. I revised ECD through the notes which I did quite early on while I went through the tutorial answers I got from both JC and ACB. I wrote out the answers for the tutorials I did not do, which helped me learn in the process, although I forgot the methods overtime quickly as the days drew closer and closer to the inevitability of misguided senses in the test halls.
Finally came the week of the common tests which spanned from Monday (4 June 2018) to Thursday (7 June 2018). Monday was where the ECD paper was started and believe me, it was the most do-able paper out of every other modules we were tested on that week. The only catch was that the case study was difficult in a sense that anything inside could be the answer, some were very clear on it being the opportunities or threats for the business we had to assess. It felt as if the paper was easy but in reality, it seemed as if passing was much of a miracle for most people even for those who had to grind hours for the knowledge required to take the test. Honestly speaking, all it needs is understanding of the topics and most of us will be fine, which the paper we took says otherwise. Moving on to the next day which was the B-Aly paper on Tuesday (5 June 2018). It was the only test which I revised for a day before and I thought it would be quite easy as like many people, there's an impression that the questions asked would be based on common sense. That would not be the case however as the labeling question on the Tableau Windows screen as the back probably confused more than 75% of the students taking the paper that day, without a doubt. Apparently the MCQs were more easy than the Short Answered Questions like most of the papers we took in the past. I did every question from the front to back, only did I realize what I really need to identify for the question at the back although I did not know how to for some of the parts. It was quite challenging for a simple module. Anyways, the papers we were being tested on got harder and harder. There were no end to the challenging factors we were being thrown at, and at this point, it is most certain that I would probably just get a pass, or even worse, a failed module for the upcoming tests for the week. It was inevitable to have such thoughts flowing through one's mind and wonder, "what to do?".
On Wednesday (6 June 2018) was where things got worse as it was the day for the FMGT paper, which I only understand only half of the concepts for that module, which is the same for the paper as I only knew how to do half of the paper, which led me to screw up the upcoming parts. Fortunately, I was not the only one with the same death defying experience so it goes to show that the paper was really very tough even for those who intensely revised for no apparent reason knowing that the paper was going to be half undo-able. Thursday (7 June 2018) was the hardest paper ever taken for the week, CMA. it was dreadful and the location was at the hall all the way up where we used to take the CSE paper, cold, unforgiving and honeslty quite scary. For the paper itself, the MCQ was already very difficult on its on, let alone the calculations we have to do at the back. Furthermore, the only easiest question we ever had was where we had to identify the types of cost and whether it is explicit or implicit (I think). It was so tough, much like the B-Stats paper, that I actually skipped to do the very last question first before I went on to do the second last, which I had no time left for parts of it. Alas, I gave up and took the remaining five minutes as time of mercy to give one final check before submission. As we all left for home, I could see the faces of depression was imprinted on everyone, smart, not so smart and those who have worked very hard for the paper, mourning over the fact that the paper once again wasted their time they invested in revising for CMA where they could have done something more such as spending time with family members, working or at least hanging out with friends as well. One friend even wrote in pencil for more than half of his paper. I just hope everything would work out well for everyone as it was obvious by the standards of this hell hole that it was a necessity to revise, other failing would be an inevitable end for those who does not consider the consequences of procrastination or not revising at all. It was the start of the two weeks break after the papers. It was a 50/50 holiday which I will explain later on.
3) The Friendship Meet-Ups and the Chunky Lobster Experience
"Good friends are like stars. You don't always see them but you know that they are there".
Before the Common Test period, I did not necessarily revise all the way as I used to last semester, it was very tiring for me and it did not contribute much to my improvement in revision. Plus the fact that this semester or term is as busy as ever with project work, it was very difficult to spend some time alone, with family and friends. However, I did make things work out for my social life so as to not lose my sanity and I would feel balanced between both my social life and my study life all the same. There have been a few times I have hung out with my friends during these stressful period to de-stress from all the tensed environment. One of the earlier ones way before the Common Test but was still very stuck from project works was RM's birthday party at Chevron on Thursday (10 May 2018). I remember some of my group mates staying back but not sure exactly for what project they were staying back for, but I went to the party anyways as I have promised and during then, it has been quite awhile since I last saw my Sec Sch friends and of course, WY and TK. Well, I went there at about 06:00 pm after staying back for a little while to discuss some work. Apparently enough I was one of the earliest among my circle despite the fact that I took the bus instead, which would naturally take longer than cabbing (which the rest opted for). It has been one of the days where I actually saw some old faces back then when school life was busy, it has been really quite awhile and it was a huge surprise when I saw an even older face I haven't seen for years. BM, last seen during my secondary school days when he left for a private school. I'm glad he's doing well and he seems pretty happy. He's in Ngee Ann Poly now, rarely see him probably because our timetables are very different. It seems that he is coping rather quite well as he's just starting out the school life there. It was a great catch up with him and we took a photo and I just went around talking to the people I knew which eventually turned up after awhile with all of them that cabbed to the place. Buffet's outside and we catch up there with food among ourselves. Talked a lot to WH, SC, WY and TK. Chatted with WY and TK about some unholy things (to be explained later) outside which actually opened up our feelings towards the situation we had with ST and the rest of the monsters that we met once during our ITE lives. It was a bit sad as the issue was still on-going. However, we went back talking to WH they all after a short discussion and me letting them know of my opinions on the situation. We went back to talk awhile before the cake cutting ceremony officially began at 09:00 pm and it was rather a touching and emotional moment for RM, wishing well hr friends especially family. It was time where we started taking photos group by group and then one by one which I got the opportunity to do. We then ate our slices of the cake and then slacked at the chalet together roughly until about 01:00 am+ for both TK and I where we took the cab home which was quite expensive roughly about $12+ for each of us. It was a really good night yet again, filled with joy from the kind of positive people which would fill your days with happiness although it feels extremely tiring.
Another outing which I have attended was going to Tanjong Pagar on Saturday, 19 May 2018, to have Chunky Lobster with WY and TK. Very far isn't it? I can't exactly remember whether it was during my 2 weeks holidays or not. It took us quite awhile to find the place as it was quite secluded for quite a good eatery. We met in the morning at BPP with WY before TK came a few minutes alter and we took the Blue Line together. We finally found the the Chunky Lobster place and to my surprise, it was a really small spot, I expected it to be bigger. The place was small and we could not find seats as there was literally none due to the fact that 3 people took up that entire shop (Yes, it was that small). I couldn't imagine what the sandwich or sub could taste like but I just went in with an open mind as it was heavily advertised by WY quite a lot. It was $16 by the way, and I ordered the Chunky Lobster filled with cheese. I don't even know if I got the name right. Anyways, we started finding a suitable spot to have our sandwiches but we kept getting chased out by this Indian lady security guard, which made us hide at the top floor to eat as there was no one there, with shops closed and empty corridors to the end of the building for that floor, it was perfect for anyone going there for illegal activities but lucky for us, we're just there to finish our bloody sandwich.
If there's one thing I know, it's that I have not eaten anything like Chunky Lobster before. It was kind of my virgin experience, and it was a very enlightened one. First of all, WY did not introduce the food wrongly and the food was extremely worth it and although the staff did recommend to get the normal one to have the full flavor of the lobster, I went for the one with the cheese as I mean, why not right? Still, it does not fail to amaze me at how the flavor of the lobster is combined so well with the taste of the cheese, along that is the side of chips and lemon which added a huge improvement to the entire thing. Furthermore, there was also iced lemon tea which I did not take a picture of. The bun itself was toasted to the right heat and was firm enough to hold all that lobster and cheese within its grasp. For me, I felt that as if the smell was enough to tell how delicious it was going to be.
Now with my usual or rather unorthodox review of this Chunky Lobster sandwich, is it a sandwich though? But wow. I must say it again, I have never tasted anything like this before. The lobster itself was juicy enough that one bite squirted the flavors of the lobster out mixed along with the lemony taste of the cheese which is put on top of it. There was also ingredients on top which I have no idea what they were but it also contributed to the taste factors of this sandwich. Along with that were a couple of chips, no not fish, but actual chips which tasted similar to a brand of chips which I forgot the brand name, can't recall but anyone, and I mean anyone can take a bite out of the sandwich for the first time, every of their bodily functions will stop and direct their energy to the taste buds which would probably be blown away by the explosion of flavors. I'd give it a 9/10 for this sandwich. Why 9? Moderation purposes, much like how our education system nowadays utilizes moderation. It was not only the sandwich itself but it was the people I hung out with that mattered as well. I truly had a good time with both WY and TK without fail, like all the time I hung out with them.
Now this, a short clip of the moment we have spent there eating our lobster sandwiches, if I'm not mistaken, it was also a few moments before we were being chased out. TK never fails to be the happy pill for literally everyone, except a few from ITE College West, to be precise our class. Now right after we have finished with our lunch, we went to travel to The Cathay which was right next to Plaza Singapura to watch Deadpool 2 with NL and WJ. Of course WJ was not too happy as we were quite late but we still made it in time for the movie as a group except for NL, who arrived even later. After the movie, we went to the top floor to have dinner at Aston's before going home. I followed WY all the way back to Jurong Point after arriving at Bukit Panjang Plaza so that we could chat even longer all the way and we parted ways after. Good times spent with very good people, hardly anyone you would want to take a loger route to sacrifice going home earlier to talk to people, that kind of thing takes some time to grow, quite some time and especially quite some time to grow friendships which will probably last a lifetime.
4) It Never Stops
"Quack!"
It's probably a wonder, what's causing me so much trouble, and why does it not stop? I should say it would not be a surprise to say what it is currently. As it may not surprise anyone, the issue lies within what I once saw as a really close friend, one which I may even have thoughts of growing the relationship further if none of this nonsense happened but alas, it is fated to happen. ST's birthday was on 24 May 2018 which was a Thursday, apparently not a holiday as well. I have been told that she planned a birthday party and did not consider to invite me despite my numerous attempts at asking her if there was any of such things going to happen, to which her replies was that she was not going to and that she created more lies in saying how it would not coincide with how her sister also did not celebrate her 21st birthday. However, ST did plan a birthday party without me however and initially even planned to invite that rubbish despite knowing what she have done. Using WY as a point of contact, she made sure I did not know about it and cultivated another cult outing and to celebrate the heinous day as well. It was unbearably disastrous and her plans only stopped where the information slowly came to light to me, and I grew extremely frustrated at her and did not even blink an eye at her for a few days, maybe even two weeks. I was extremely upset. Like, what the hell. I am not being petty, but the fact that I am still being lied to in front of my face and still treated like a criminal says it all, it says that she does not even appreciate my existence as her friend and all I am good at is when she have no one else to talk to.
The way this was partially settle is unsettling, even more so when we did not even really communicate about this. Apparently, I got invited to the birthday party after all, but it was only me and her in the end just to talk things out. No, not even her closest friends or anyone I know was celebrating it for her although WY backed out half-way as he became sick last minute and tried to allow me to have a chance to talk things out with her. She was that desperate into not letting me know that she still keep in contact with those cultists. So much for being her close friend huh? I've peeked her message with WY in the bus as I was hanging out with WY one night, and that was where it backed up the fact that ST really was a devil in disguise. How this matter was settled was quite unforeseen and strange, meeting her up alone under her house with a cake just to settle some issues instead of actually celebrating her 21st birthday, quite terrible and of course it was quite obvious that something was wrong, she clearly was lying on some parts which was even harder for me to settle it with her as she also withheld her stand in showing me the messages as well. Anyways, we parted ways at Lot One after she had to get something from over there. We shall just see how it goes, will it improve? Will it be better? Only time will tell.
The Conclusion: "School's Starting again!"
"Time is running out"
I will have to end this post on a shorter note due to the fact that school is literally starting tomorrow and I only have time to post as much as I can for what has happened over the past two weeks which was the middle break for the semester after the common test, from Monday (11 June 2018) to Sunday (24 June 2018). It was quite unfortunate as I kept coughing and tried numerous ways to get it cured and it ended up causing me a severe case of rashes for the first week of the holidays. Much of my time is spent on doing school work which was numerous and quite tedious to some extend. However, I did go to Malacca with my family of the second week of my holidays from Friday (22 June 2018) to Sunday (24 June 2018) and who can forget the night WY came to visit me under my house before I took off for the trip on Thursday (21 June 2018). I will further elaborate more on this second week of my holiday in details in my next post, which will probably be after my final exams which is on August. Hurrah, just a month away from death and agony. The life of a student is not easy, but it is indeed a path we choose to take. No one ever said life was easy, nor did anyone expect it to be achieved with ease. I am currently still struggling with my CMA module which is extremely difficult for me as I am clearly not mathematically gifted or an accounting prodigy.
As for ST, we shall see how it goes on our path through these stressful moments, which clearly is school work. It's kind of sad, like I always say, that things have turned out like this between me and her because of one ungrateful hag. Yet, she took sides with one who have caused her more harm than the Black Death plague have caused all of Europe's population. I hope that poor sucker knows who she really is friends with. Anyways, back to ending this post. I certainly hope things do turn out well for me in the coming months as it will be very important for me too as I also start getting my results of the common test back starting from next week. Until then!
Yours Sincerely,
(No Signature Required)
Yai Kai Soon
2) Avengers: Infinity War
"The end is near..."
I would like to start off with a movie outing which I went with both WY and NL. It was a movie which I have been eagerly waiting for ever since the first trailer came out and they just repeatedly show more trailers till they finally showed a trailer of Thanos' debut. I was so excited I think I even see the online trailer about 10 times before the date got nearer that me and WY decided to watch the movie on the day it came out which was Wednesday (25 April 2018). I remember I still had IS classes the day after so it should be the right day we went to watch the movie. ME and WY got the movie tickets about a week before so I kept the tickets and looking at it everyday in excitement, and then about 3 days before, I heard that NL was going to join us so I helped change the seats and helped him get an extra ticket at night at Causeway Point. Yes, that was where we decided to watch the movie, Cathay at Causeway Point at 06:30 pm and the movie is going to last for at least 2 hours.The time has come on the day itself which was 25 April 2018, but I had to go to JC's house with JC, ACB and PM at Clementi to start up on our Business Analytics (B-Aly) project first. Although there wasn't much progress, something was at least done although I could not really remember what it was. It was about 04:30 pm already and I just went off from there. I reached there about 05:00 pm and wait for both WY and NL as they came from Republic Poly (RP) and they took quite awhile to get to Causeway Point. We casually had dinner at the Food Republic there and everyone was visibly tired from schooling. We chatted and promptly made our way up to buy the cinema food before going in, we went in just nice due to the fact that the advertisements take quite bloody long, just enough time for me to pee one last time before the movie started.
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| Poster for Avengers: Infinity War, April 27 for other countries. |
By knowing that Thanos have won and half the universe really got erased along with the death of many heroes, the whole theater became silent as the credits started rolling and everyone was confused. The did not know how to react, and the credits just rolled along with the theme being playing associated with the feelings of people being devastated. It was feeling different from when we came into the theater with excitement and joy. The movie ended with everyone being depressed because of the deaths. The very sad part of the credits happened, the title of the movie fading away into nothingness and we all just left. NL took a cab home as he had his reflection journal to do as I talked with WY all the way to the bus stop where he took 187 home. It was both a really great and depressing experience that day. However, the whole movie was fantastic and it lived up to its hype. They also changed Thanos' motivation very well and it tackled a real life issue of over population where it's one of the top problems in the world currently. I'd give this movie a rating of 9.8/10. The 0.2 is because of how depressed it made everyone after leaving the theater, gosh! I watched the movie for the second time the following week on Monday (30 April 2018). I had the chance of watching it as Tuesday (1 May 2018) was Labor Day. I cried as I saw the death of Spider man as it was very emotional to me. Still, an excellent movie!
2) Dreaded School Life
"I had a very expensive education"
School life have been much more dissatisfying as it already is. There is just too many things to do on a daily basis and slowly, we had more and more tasks till our own free time started to slowly fade away. Much of my time have been spent on staying back to do project work, especially for B-Aly where there is a Skype session every Friday with the lecturer, and it's a 100% remote learning module. That's one of the projects we actually focus on, the rest was just starting discussions on Skype such as Financial Management (FMGT) and Enterprise Creation & Development (ECD). We also did a report for Cost Management Accounting (CMA) as well. I was grouped with different people from the class, which all of them were girls. The only people that I'm same group with throughout are JC and ACB. Time went by fast along this period and it was very hard to cope with how fast the time bring along the lectures and tutorials where it's impossible to capture information sometimes. Frankly, I get sleepy at times and fell asleep on occasions because I could not stand the reality of having to sit there trying to take in information for papers which would probably decide my future outlook on my career path which I frankly must say that I am very uncharted about it at the moment. On the bright side, at least I have a clear goal into marketing as there have been support all around for me to go there as it would allow me to harness the use of my artistic talents to do well in that specialization of my course. It definitely sparked a passion in me for going there so it kind of motivated me to at least try to survive to that point because it would be nice to finally make use of my skills for something relevant to my work, where I can enjoy doing what I love and at the same time, do well and excel in it which would help me find a future.
With that said, time moves on very fast. As we were all busy with all the projects, the Common Test (CT) period have already started to pop by soon enough. We did projects until it was Monday (28 May 2018). where we set them aside to focus on our revision. To be honest, I only really started revising on Wednesday (29 May 2018) as I did not have any feels nor the energy to revise despite the fact that the tests were a few days away. The tests included ECD, B-Aly, FMGT and CMA, two of the latter which I am not knowledgeable at the very least. Other than that, I have no clue whatsoever I'm doing, even the tutorials were bloody difficult to me. I revised ECD through the notes which I did quite early on while I went through the tutorial answers I got from both JC and ACB. I wrote out the answers for the tutorials I did not do, which helped me learn in the process, although I forgot the methods overtime quickly as the days drew closer and closer to the inevitability of misguided senses in the test halls.
Finally came the week of the common tests which spanned from Monday (4 June 2018) to Thursday (7 June 2018). Monday was where the ECD paper was started and believe me, it was the most do-able paper out of every other modules we were tested on that week. The only catch was that the case study was difficult in a sense that anything inside could be the answer, some were very clear on it being the opportunities or threats for the business we had to assess. It felt as if the paper was easy but in reality, it seemed as if passing was much of a miracle for most people even for those who had to grind hours for the knowledge required to take the test. Honestly speaking, all it needs is understanding of the topics and most of us will be fine, which the paper we took says otherwise. Moving on to the next day which was the B-Aly paper on Tuesday (5 June 2018). It was the only test which I revised for a day before and I thought it would be quite easy as like many people, there's an impression that the questions asked would be based on common sense. That would not be the case however as the labeling question on the Tableau Windows screen as the back probably confused more than 75% of the students taking the paper that day, without a doubt. Apparently the MCQs were more easy than the Short Answered Questions like most of the papers we took in the past. I did every question from the front to back, only did I realize what I really need to identify for the question at the back although I did not know how to for some of the parts. It was quite challenging for a simple module. Anyways, the papers we were being tested on got harder and harder. There were no end to the challenging factors we were being thrown at, and at this point, it is most certain that I would probably just get a pass, or even worse, a failed module for the upcoming tests for the week. It was inevitable to have such thoughts flowing through one's mind and wonder, "what to do?".
On Wednesday (6 June 2018) was where things got worse as it was the day for the FMGT paper, which I only understand only half of the concepts for that module, which is the same for the paper as I only knew how to do half of the paper, which led me to screw up the upcoming parts. Fortunately, I was not the only one with the same death defying experience so it goes to show that the paper was really very tough even for those who intensely revised for no apparent reason knowing that the paper was going to be half undo-able. Thursday (7 June 2018) was the hardest paper ever taken for the week, CMA. it was dreadful and the location was at the hall all the way up where we used to take the CSE paper, cold, unforgiving and honeslty quite scary. For the paper itself, the MCQ was already very difficult on its on, let alone the calculations we have to do at the back. Furthermore, the only easiest question we ever had was where we had to identify the types of cost and whether it is explicit or implicit (I think). It was so tough, much like the B-Stats paper, that I actually skipped to do the very last question first before I went on to do the second last, which I had no time left for parts of it. Alas, I gave up and took the remaining five minutes as time of mercy to give one final check before submission. As we all left for home, I could see the faces of depression was imprinted on everyone, smart, not so smart and those who have worked very hard for the paper, mourning over the fact that the paper once again wasted their time they invested in revising for CMA where they could have done something more such as spending time with family members, working or at least hanging out with friends as well. One friend even wrote in pencil for more than half of his paper. I just hope everything would work out well for everyone as it was obvious by the standards of this hell hole that it was a necessity to revise, other failing would be an inevitable end for those who does not consider the consequences of procrastination or not revising at all. It was the start of the two weeks break after the papers. It was a 50/50 holiday which I will explain later on.
3) The Friendship Meet-Ups and the Chunky Lobster Experience
"Good friends are like stars. You don't always see them but you know that they are there".
Before the Common Test period, I did not necessarily revise all the way as I used to last semester, it was very tiring for me and it did not contribute much to my improvement in revision. Plus the fact that this semester or term is as busy as ever with project work, it was very difficult to spend some time alone, with family and friends. However, I did make things work out for my social life so as to not lose my sanity and I would feel balanced between both my social life and my study life all the same. There have been a few times I have hung out with my friends during these stressful period to de-stress from all the tensed environment. One of the earlier ones way before the Common Test but was still very stuck from project works was RM's birthday party at Chevron on Thursday (10 May 2018). I remember some of my group mates staying back but not sure exactly for what project they were staying back for, but I went to the party anyways as I have promised and during then, it has been quite awhile since I last saw my Sec Sch friends and of course, WY and TK. Well, I went there at about 06:00 pm after staying back for a little while to discuss some work. Apparently enough I was one of the earliest among my circle despite the fact that I took the bus instead, which would naturally take longer than cabbing (which the rest opted for). It has been one of the days where I actually saw some old faces back then when school life was busy, it has been really quite awhile and it was a huge surprise when I saw an even older face I haven't seen for years. BM, last seen during my secondary school days when he left for a private school. I'm glad he's doing well and he seems pretty happy. He's in Ngee Ann Poly now, rarely see him probably because our timetables are very different. It seems that he is coping rather quite well as he's just starting out the school life there. It was a great catch up with him and we took a photo and I just went around talking to the people I knew which eventually turned up after awhile with all of them that cabbed to the place. Buffet's outside and we catch up there with food among ourselves. Talked a lot to WH, SC, WY and TK. Chatted with WY and TK about some unholy things (to be explained later) outside which actually opened up our feelings towards the situation we had with ST and the rest of the monsters that we met once during our ITE lives. It was a bit sad as the issue was still on-going. However, we went back talking to WH they all after a short discussion and me letting them know of my opinions on the situation. We went back to talk awhile before the cake cutting ceremony officially began at 09:00 pm and it was rather a touching and emotional moment for RM, wishing well hr friends especially family. It was time where we started taking photos group by group and then one by one which I got the opportunity to do. We then ate our slices of the cake and then slacked at the chalet together roughly until about 01:00 am+ for both TK and I where we took the cab home which was quite expensive roughly about $12+ for each of us. It was a really good night yet again, filled with joy from the kind of positive people which would fill your days with happiness although it feels extremely tiring.
Another outing which I have attended was going to Tanjong Pagar on Saturday, 19 May 2018, to have Chunky Lobster with WY and TK. Very far isn't it? I can't exactly remember whether it was during my 2 weeks holidays or not. It took us quite awhile to find the place as it was quite secluded for quite a good eatery. We met in the morning at BPP with WY before TK came a few minutes alter and we took the Blue Line together. We finally found the the Chunky Lobster place and to my surprise, it was a really small spot, I expected it to be bigger. The place was small and we could not find seats as there was literally none due to the fact that 3 people took up that entire shop (Yes, it was that small). I couldn't imagine what the sandwich or sub could taste like but I just went in with an open mind as it was heavily advertised by WY quite a lot. It was $16 by the way, and I ordered the Chunky Lobster filled with cheese. I don't even know if I got the name right. Anyways, we started finding a suitable spot to have our sandwiches but we kept getting chased out by this Indian lady security guard, which made us hide at the top floor to eat as there was no one there, with shops closed and empty corridors to the end of the building for that floor, it was perfect for anyone going there for illegal activities but lucky for us, we're just there to finish our bloody sandwich.
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| The signage for the original sandwich. |
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| Holy balls! This picture is already making the food looks damn scrumptious! |
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| The taste is heavenly, a bite of life expanding qualities. |
Now this, a short clip of the moment we have spent there eating our lobster sandwiches, if I'm not mistaken, it was also a few moments before we were being chased out. TK never fails to be the happy pill for literally everyone, except a few from ITE College West, to be precise our class. Now right after we have finished with our lunch, we went to travel to The Cathay which was right next to Plaza Singapura to watch Deadpool 2 with NL and WJ. Of course WJ was not too happy as we were quite late but we still made it in time for the movie as a group except for NL, who arrived even later. After the movie, we went to the top floor to have dinner at Aston's before going home. I followed WY all the way back to Jurong Point after arriving at Bukit Panjang Plaza so that we could chat even longer all the way and we parted ways after. Good times spent with very good people, hardly anyone you would want to take a loger route to sacrifice going home earlier to talk to people, that kind of thing takes some time to grow, quite some time and especially quite some time to grow friendships which will probably last a lifetime.
4) It Never Stops
"Quack!"
It's probably a wonder, what's causing me so much trouble, and why does it not stop? I should say it would not be a surprise to say what it is currently. As it may not surprise anyone, the issue lies within what I once saw as a really close friend, one which I may even have thoughts of growing the relationship further if none of this nonsense happened but alas, it is fated to happen. ST's birthday was on 24 May 2018 which was a Thursday, apparently not a holiday as well. I have been told that she planned a birthday party and did not consider to invite me despite my numerous attempts at asking her if there was any of such things going to happen, to which her replies was that she was not going to and that she created more lies in saying how it would not coincide with how her sister also did not celebrate her 21st birthday. However, ST did plan a birthday party without me however and initially even planned to invite that rubbish despite knowing what she have done. Using WY as a point of contact, she made sure I did not know about it and cultivated another cult outing and to celebrate the heinous day as well. It was unbearably disastrous and her plans only stopped where the information slowly came to light to me, and I grew extremely frustrated at her and did not even blink an eye at her for a few days, maybe even two weeks. I was extremely upset. Like, what the hell. I am not being petty, but the fact that I am still being lied to in front of my face and still treated like a criminal says it all, it says that she does not even appreciate my existence as her friend and all I am good at is when she have no one else to talk to.
The way this was partially settle is unsettling, even more so when we did not even really communicate about this. Apparently, I got invited to the birthday party after all, but it was only me and her in the end just to talk things out. No, not even her closest friends or anyone I know was celebrating it for her although WY backed out half-way as he became sick last minute and tried to allow me to have a chance to talk things out with her. She was that desperate into not letting me know that she still keep in contact with those cultists. So much for being her close friend huh? I've peeked her message with WY in the bus as I was hanging out with WY one night, and that was where it backed up the fact that ST really was a devil in disguise. How this matter was settled was quite unforeseen and strange, meeting her up alone under her house with a cake just to settle some issues instead of actually celebrating her 21st birthday, quite terrible and of course it was quite obvious that something was wrong, she clearly was lying on some parts which was even harder for me to settle it with her as she also withheld her stand in showing me the messages as well. Anyways, we parted ways at Lot One after she had to get something from over there. We shall just see how it goes, will it improve? Will it be better? Only time will tell.
The Conclusion: "School's Starting again!"
"Time is running out"
I will have to end this post on a shorter note due to the fact that school is literally starting tomorrow and I only have time to post as much as I can for what has happened over the past two weeks which was the middle break for the semester after the common test, from Monday (11 June 2018) to Sunday (24 June 2018). It was quite unfortunate as I kept coughing and tried numerous ways to get it cured and it ended up causing me a severe case of rashes for the first week of the holidays. Much of my time is spent on doing school work which was numerous and quite tedious to some extend. However, I did go to Malacca with my family of the second week of my holidays from Friday (22 June 2018) to Sunday (24 June 2018) and who can forget the night WY came to visit me under my house before I took off for the trip on Thursday (21 June 2018). I will further elaborate more on this second week of my holiday in details in my next post, which will probably be after my final exams which is on August. Hurrah, just a month away from death and agony. The life of a student is not easy, but it is indeed a path we choose to take. No one ever said life was easy, nor did anyone expect it to be achieved with ease. I am currently still struggling with my CMA module which is extremely difficult for me as I am clearly not mathematically gifted or an accounting prodigy.
As for ST, we shall see how it goes on our path through these stressful moments, which clearly is school work. It's kind of sad, like I always say, that things have turned out like this between me and her because of one ungrateful hag. Yet, she took sides with one who have caused her more harm than the Black Death plague have caused all of Europe's population. I hope that poor sucker knows who she really is friends with. Anyways, back to ending this post. I certainly hope things do turn out well for me in the coming months as it will be very important for me too as I also start getting my results of the common test back starting from next week. Until then!
Yours Sincerely,
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Yai Kai Soon
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